aaaa i'm so happy people are liking my mettatenna art everywhere i post! i love it so much... sidenote, i also have a tumblr! i just haven't had the time for attaching it to my carrd oops... also i want to give some info about my posting times and how i usually post so that no one misses it:

i always post new art on tiktok firstly, after that i post to every other social media i have (twitter, instagram and tumblr) i didn't have this planned but i'm planning on posting at 1pm or 1am EST whenever i do so (for me it would be 3pm and 3am) i have no idea if anyone even reads my neocities page, its not like it has much to offer other than my thoughts but maybe this is helpful for someone out there!

i'm so so so so happy aaaaa!!!!!!1

pardon my language but oh my god... my mettatenna art is kinda going viral... this is so strange to me aaa...
i never expected it to do that good, i am so very thankful for all the support and the nice thinga people say about it! though... it bothers me a bit people are trying to put the pieces together, when the full version is already up in my social media and on tiktok as well!! go look for it! thank you everybody! <3<3<3

to be honest, this halloween was very bad. couldn't go out or even dress up or anything...
but at least i have debuted my new art in tiktok now. i hope people like it and doesn't get put off by the change of artstyle... i'm sure most of the followers i had loved gorillaz the same as i but, i also have many other interests... if youre here from tiktok, know that i will firstly be posting my art on tiktok and maybe some other time in my socials, im scared of people stealing my work :/

sometimes i wonder if putting a limit on to people in the way i do is too much.
i know i shouln't care that much about how the other person feels when it comes to putting on limits, but everytime i do i worry about the other person aswell.
i hate that i demean myself and treat myself like a monster for lashing out, when theres probably more reasons as to why i lashed out than 'just cause'. but i hate feeling aggressive, like a scared barking dog i just spit out a string of words like lava, hurtful and full of recentment. i can't avoid feeling like this, makes me highly question wether what i do is right or wrong. i want to believe i'm in control and what i'm doing is right, but i can't convince myself. what if i'm a terror? what if i'm abusive and horrible and no action i do makes sense, am i a victim or am i an abuser am i both am i none? i feel very odd today and i don't like spiraling like this, ever.

i don't even know how or why but my neck is weak and in pain. i was planning on visiting family but i'm not feeling too good.
I don't even have the energy to draw, which sucks a lot, i'm also trying to stay consistant whith this log, but not much has happened recently. nothing bad or great to even type about, i'm very contempt with life, so i guess today i'll just complaing about neck pain. (edit: turns out i did go and had a beautiful day with family <3)

internship is finally over!
the time for further developing our finals project is opun us. thankful that now i have more time to produce the art i always wanted to make too.

welcome to my webpage everyone, feel free to read all about what i love/make. this webpage has just started to take form, there's not much to see for now... but i'm thankful for your visit regardless. <3